Welcome to that start of my discussion series, which I have adequately called Olivia’s Catastrophe because it will mainly be things I find are debatable topics or problems I have… etc
Today I will be discussing being introverted! Now, I know that many of the people on the blogger world are actually extroverts and won’t be able to relate as much, but I also know that a lot of them are introverts as well… just like me. If any of you are interested in the MBIT test, then you will know that I am an INFJ – one of the most introverted personalities you can get.
I first started seeing being introverted as a problem a while back. I never thought about it much, but at some point I simply stopped going to school parties, stopped going over to friends as much and missed out on a lot of social gatherings. It can make you feel left out the next day, and it can make you feel really guilty about it. Sometimes I even hate myself for not going because I feel like I should’ve been there. But should I really be forcing myself to go? It’s always the question.
In the summer I went to China by myself. Being only fifteen, it was a pretty big step for me. I just had to trust that God was with me. For a while I had been praying to be more extroverted – and little did I know that God had answered it by giving me a chance to be more confident in myself. I had to learn to ask strangers for help, make friends with people I didn’t know at all because I was alone on the program and I learned to be a lot more social. With the full time schedule I blended in with any extrovert. When I came home I needed three days to myself holed up in my room, but it showed me that I can do it.
Some days I will prefer reading a book over going out with my friends (even though I love them all.) Some days I chill with friends and talk easily. Some days I just want to stay home and curl up in bed. I will always need my alone time. But now I realise it is okay to be introverted and it is part of who I am.
Olivia’s Question: Are you an introvert or an extrovert? What is one thing that clearly defines you as one or the other?